update

i refuse to update coz of that stupid bugger.. tink i love to be emo ah.. u tink i like to feel depress ah.. tink im fooling around.. walao ehz..

ok kyo wa May 06, 2.32am..

i found a way to handle the pain.. several days ago.. but not everyone will understand the method i'm using, so i can't really tell ppl.. my ma tot im going crazy.. dun worry im still sane..

jus talked to one of RH's good fren yesterday... managed to find someone to share my issues with and she understood.. also told her RH's changes which she didn't realise at all.. (RH's started playing computer games, and craziness for anime) finally can get it all out.. she understood my method of dealing with the pain, and even believed in me that she might do it too.. ok i making u all abit gian liao.. i jus satisfy your curiosity la.. my method is writing letters.. in fact some people tot that method is wrong coz i'll remember her more.. i'll tell u, u wont understand until you experienced a death, you realise what is really neccessary.. i can tell you forgetting her i've tried.. it isn't the way to go for me..

so, today im not so emo now (and its totally definitely not because of Mysterious.. he has steered me the opposite way.. u noe how scared i've become of reading MY OWN BLOG!! i hate flamewars, and my own blog become a battlefield (sheep's not to blame... initially, i told sheep to quiet abit coz i'm tracking him down with my tools i downloaded JUST to track him.. but later i realise i can't really deduce who he is.. so i ask sheep to open fire so i can get some details out of him.. it was fun while it lasted haha.. theres only 3 possible people actually..)

again, today im not so emo because i've been coping by writing letters liao.. so some boliao stuff..

sian proposal got rejected for mobile phone game.. we are planning a simple whack-a-mole game.. but with craziness factor inside.. coz on a mobile phone our objective was simple but exciting.. then teacher said "I need a more deep game.. that requires the player to think" wah sian man.. this is only mobile phone.. plus we are not really sure we really can match up to deadline anot.. so we cant take a risk in a bigger game..

that time i was in the lift with my poly friends.. then the lift was crowded.. and since i was standing at the buttons, i had to take requests in holding the door, closing the door.. i dunoe why it somehow felt exciting.. that i actually had a game idea during that moment of time..

u are the manager of a 99 stories of a MANUAL hotel lift.. (maybe low level only 9 stories.. then slowly increase).. (which doesnt really exists).. the lift doors doesnt open when the customers call them.. you are supposed to stop the lift for them, open the door, and close the door.. you key in the level the customer(s) are going to.. then you have to also be wary of requests to open the lift door as the lift moves up (or down) the building to let people come in.. you also have to close the door.. and then fill in more requests.. you have to wary of how full is the lift, how much patience the customers have (before they go out climb stairs).. you also can equip trusters.. magically expand the size of the lift.. equip dimensional doors that link to multiple levels.. also call for reinforcements of lifts.. hmm.. maybe i might do that.. when im boliao..