update

woo feels like 3 months since my last update.. was surprised to see its only a month ago..

holiday wasted.. haiz..

everyday seems to be a challenge finding a place to go that day.. can't find a job either..

ok la i post bcoz i feeling emo.. cried bout 15 mins ago.. just thinking of her..

usually, i try not to cry one.. but nowadays, tears can flow out of anywhere anytime, even right in the midst of people..


i learnt something from what somebody said.. which explains a paradox i have since her death.. it's controversial though.. so i'm not saying what it is, but from personal experience i found that it fits for me.. well i have another site i visit everyday.. it's a grief forum.. i often share my thoughts and weird experiences there.. i didn't bother to conceal my name, so it's quite easy to CSI out what site it is..

since that day, i have been to the temple to visit her 5 times.. the last 2 times.. i failed to see her.. because i mistook the timing of the closing time of the 'colobrium' (can't spell)

why did i add a countdown on my nick.. let you guess.. see how many years that is.. that you can probably guess the reason i'm counting down.. not that i'm pessimistic.. because that time will come eventually.. but, i'm really looking forward to that day...

(you are still beautiful to me, i wonder how you look like now)