5.41am.. i just woke up from a dream..

better type what my dream is..

i dreamt of her.. and for some reason i was at her house (but it wasn't identical to her house anyway.. as in its NOT her house in real life, but i am just in her house in that house..).. and she was there, her mum was there.. it was 7 am in the morning in singapore.. and we just spent the morning doing boring stuff at her house, using the internet and watching anime and tv.. then she ate breakfast and i volunteered to offer her make her milo and she dun wan.. (@_@!)

then suddenly dunoe why her house suddenly become MY house.. the house is still different from my house in real life, but its just my house.. my dog, parents, bro and cousin was there.. they wanted to play games.. eventually rh and i got really bored.. and also cant think of what to do liao.. suddenly i said.. "u noe what, let's talk".. and she said ok.. in this scenario, the death had already happened, and she knew about it.. we went into a room.. i brought everything i had done (all the letters, drawings written and stuff) since her death.. i wanted to show her.. then i woke up -----------------------..................

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....... well in fact it's been a long time since i dreamt of her.. this is the most clearest dream i can remember.. the rest she didn't play that major role.. more like a cameo or something.. so far this the only dream where its just solely bout her..


1 more week to your happy 18th birthday ruihua.. i had always looked forward to september 15th.. because i can use your birthday as an excuse to call your house and talk to you (otherwise i dun tink your ma will allow it ba).. this year and onwards forever.. its no longer..........

anyway it still sucks it was a dream.. even though there is comfort, dreams in fact can make u even more sad.. you might think perhaps a good dream about her might make me feel better.. that may not be so actually..

finished?

after a dramatic project (ask me personally).. well glad that we are allowed one more week.. this time muz really chiong..

well the reason i cried before the presentation is partly first the game is not a game, how am i supposed to present it.. i felt very bad that time.. but the second reason is.. the 6 months ago.. everything felt so familiar.. and down there in the worst mood i just thought of her and cried..

then when going home during the last day (supposedly) was supposed to b relaxed.. i lost my hp in the bus.. the memories inside that SIM card.. haiz..

so currently still dun hav ic ezlink n posb card.. lol...

really dunoe wad to add on here.. hope everyone in my grp do their job as well.. later get accused of being solo again lol..

its september.. i always looked forward towards this month.. because i will get one excuse to make a call to someone.. but this year and onwards forever..