"hey its been 11 months eh?"
"ya"
"didn't much things happened during this time?"
"hmm?"
"we've been through quite some times during this period"
"but you are already not here.."
"no, don't think everything ends and that you are just going through alone.. i've been with you all these times too! it's not that once i'm gone you can no longer share things with me and stuff.. when you go through these things even i am also experiencing it."



"Remember during the wake? You refused to show sadness in front of my mum.. you came to my photo with a smile, said a happy "Hi", then looked at my body.. then went back and tell yourself to not make me sad, and finish your project despite the fact you are grieving, having lost the girl you have liked so long."



"if you swapped places with her.. would you rather her to experience what you are going through now?"
"...no."
"then in that case, you are actually bearing the pain for her."
"but she has better plans than me, she's looking forward to a better future! she has more people missing her!"
"well, death is like that. There is no way it couldn't happen."


1 month and 5 days left.