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wahlao after reading fren's blog suddenly feel like blogging..

but i dunoe where to start..


anyways..

still quite moody.. the feeling that when everything is so calm and peaceful.. is the time THAT wound seems to ache the most..

anyways reading the news of the 5 dragonboaters.. as usual, it didnt hit me much initially.. but as i clicked on a link that linked to one of his fren's blog.. i got reminded of everything i did after i received the call bout her.. everything is so similar.. suddenly i did some serious condolences things (things like 1 min of silence) that right now i believed that moment i really tio impacted..

but... haiz.. why do humans always forget that death is always a footstep away...

why do we always forget that even friends and families, even the girl you loved the most.. will die.. why do we always take it that death will not happen in the most joyous of circumstances..

i also realised my dog MIGHT hav a skin disease.. it whole day keep scratching itself.. until when we noticed that it's knee even the skin also gone... coz it keep scratching there.. and the ear also.. disgusting..

suddenly at tt point of time.. as i look as my dog running around in the living room.. i start to tink of the moment him passing away..

i've grown attached to him.. since dogs only live maybe 10-16 years.. but of coz.. it might come even faster.. the day is gonna come..

mayb i shd not grow so attached to things anymore.. mayb prepare myself for everyone's death..

tis.. is torturous





anyways, i was tinking ever since my mood and behavior seems to have taken a turn for the worse, esp since the previous post's 'quarrel'.. i have felt such guilt.. dat i told myself to sort of jus "keep tinking of it (the incident) until it's no longer painful"..

mayb sometimes its better to assume we are villainous than a honest and integrity person... sometimes when things are out of your control.. or you just simply fall to it.. at least u dun hav to bother yourself wif such things because "you are evil, you are the villain"..

when ppl scold harsh things at you, you can accept it easier because u do not keep promises..


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