short post

been some 1-2 months since i last wrote a letter.. really helps facilitate stuff.. a torture wif all the feelings kept within..

guess writing to her n fro is quite easy for me now compared to the time when i started... reading back always seems amazing

i really miss you...




I've always been scared to start grieving.. but just now as I feel like going down to buy something.. suddenly I stopped.. forget it.. then I went back to my room, turned on her favourite music and took out everything, and start writing.. the thought of doing that hurts, but once u started its nothing much...

how long do i have to endure this...




the period i feared 8 months ago has arrived, no topics to talk or think about.. memories have all been discussed finished.. now its just "hello, how are you?", "I'm sad", "It's great here"... the time that I feared I am unable to find anything interesting to think about her again.. But yet, the simple things always work... now its just a short letter tat doesn't think too much time and helps facilitates emotions, than if I spent a whole night thinking about her.. From my board, they said that seperation is too negatively viewed.. A liberation, some says, a blessing for the departed, but unfortunately, a torture for the survivors.