depression?

how to get classified as depression.. coz when my teacher mentioned her mum is suffering depression.. sounds pretty bad..

but am i suffering depression too?

is it only when i keep pondering over it that i suffer depression? I'm just trying not to think about it.. but if I have nothing else to do, I might spend the whole pondering about her..

I understand it is normal since she has been extremely closed to her mum.. shouldn't be surprised she's suffering depression..

but why can't I get labeled as suffering depression though?

Everyone thinks I've "gotten over it".. hell no.. in fact theres no such thing as getting over it.. Theres such thing called endurance though.. Just putting up a okay look.. I can also attempt to not think about it.. Or just pretend nothing's wrong.. Heck, but they are not true.. I miss her, I really want this "Suffering from depression" label.. you think I'm emo? okay fine.. look, I'm not as okay as you look.. no matter how many times you ask me "Am I alright?", I will always say "fine", or "I'm okay".. who the heck would tell a person straight to face "I'M EMO!!! I'M SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION!!! WAHHHHHH"..

at least getting this label tells everyone automatically, I'm not as okay as I look.. because I'm suffering from depression.. (okay I know it's not fun for people who is already confirmed suffering from it.. I'm being serious here.. I'm just saying I've reasons to be sad, just not thinking about it.. and I really really miss her and she's not gonna come back no matter how much I miss)