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today in sch while in lab.. i see my fone and saw 2 missed calls wif an sms, which says that my pri sch teacher called.. the tone was like that

"Hey this is , please return call"

when i saw i was so damn worried.. suddenly the feeling of preparing for another funeral is back.. i called 2 times and got a busy tone.. then 3rd it called thru, but no one picked up, this went bout 20 mins of attempted calls with nobody picking up.. so i was so damn worried..

i prepared myself for a shocking msg.. i told myself another death will come.. sherman be prepared..

well, 1 hour later, my teacher called, den in a cheerful voice asked me how am i.. well my pri sch teacher, unlike other classes, is a very nice teacher.. well she's one of the teacher rh sends a seasonal greeting card every year.. i also stayed in contact with her.. she was also the first one i asked for help when her death happened.. and came with her husband to console me and helped me contact a counselor.. so ya she's a very nice teacher

so the reason she called me wasn't that major actually.. but just telling me i should contact rh's mum sometime, coz she is suffering from depression.. she has been calling rh's frens to ask them about how they are coping, so my teacher told me i should call her mum to talk to her too...

her mum put up a strong resistance during the funeral.. trying to smile while talking to us.. thanks to her, i didnt really break down at the funeral, so as not to stress her mum.. looks like everybody ain't so strong after all..

what a coincidence.. it's last night i cried after so long.. and the next day someone told me there is someone whom i should comfort too... seems like quite a nice timing.. well i felt that i've been crying alone for so long (8 months), so hopefully it's a nice opportunity to share my feelings too..