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i was feeling quite okay jus now

suddenly came across a half a day old news on the forum (had seen that thread earlier but hadn't clicked on it)

Air Force NSF collapses, dies after run

collapses, dies after run

den in the last paragraph of the news article..




"In February, a second-year junior college student collapsed during the last 100m of a 2.4km run. She was taken to hospital but died that same day. "

sounds so general.. but replace that with the girl that i have chased for 7 years.. and the fact it is true..

She was taken to hospital but died that same day.

haiz.. "died that same day"... on february 27th..

and ever since that day, never going to see nor talk to her ever again...





this feeling.. seems to have a nullifying effect on the body.. the fact it has been so long right now im so used to it, i tink there is no way to make it hurt anymore.. (all previous posts hav been e same effect ba).. one can tell himself to be joyful, to be happy, but one canot tell himself to feel pain and sad..

haiz.. now it feels fresh all over again.. come to tink of it.. its 9 months 2 days since that day